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I am so sorry for your loss. My heart hurts for you. When you spoke about Every Memory you have was with her and it was so great. Hold on to those memories right now to get you through. That is such a beautiful thing to be blessed with someone that is so close to you and has made your life so much more better. You were so lucky to have had her. How about keeping busy doing some scap booking and putting all your memories down on a book.

Make sure you keep yourself around supportive positive people and family. Thanks for coming here and sharing, if we can help you in any way please type away.
Just take minute by minute until you can try to feel alittle bit better but I know it is hard.

Thank you for your kind words. It brought the tears. I just have this ache that doesn't go away. We are a close family but I am trying to be the strong one for my mom and sister and everyone. My husband has been great but really nothing is helping. I have now taken my aunts place and am the caregiver for my nana. Everytime I.pass by my aunts room it just seems like a horrible nightmare. I find myself telling myself she is gone hundreds of times a day. I smell the stupid flowers leftovers from the funeral and I feel like I am going to throw up. My aunt gave me a rubberband when I saw her last cause I didn't have one..I cant seem to take the rubberband off my wrist. Thanks tor listening..

Jennifer

Awe that is sweet, you whare that rubber band as long as you want. It is going to be very hard for the first year. You will probaly go through several stages of grief. Please surround your self with outside support groups too, like counselor, therapist, local support groups, friends and family that are positive. Please take care and god bless you and your nana.

Thank you for sharing this. I lost my aunt who was also like a second mother to me on December 9th. Every day has been a struggle and I also do not know how to help my family because I don't know how to help myself. I cling to our last conversation and wish every day that I could have been there with her. I can't say I know what you are going through though because I've found that everyone is different because the loved one we lost was different. I'll be praying that your days get easier and the happy memories remain.

I know how you feel - KCB061409, I lost my mimi 26 years ago and I still long for her and miss her. Time helps healing but you still miss your loved ones.