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hi Allison... i wish i had words to make everything better, to take it all away, but i dont. I can tell you though, that you are not alone. There are many many people out here that know how and what you are feeling and what we can do is offer love and support to help you through...

I lost my dad, a brother and two husbands in the past 10 years.. my heart goes out to you... *hugs

Have you thought about seeing a professional? Sounds like you have some pretty deep depression going on and doctors can help alot with that!

You will be in my thoughts and prayers...

Allison, I feel for you and understand your pain. I have both my parents and they are elderly and I don't know when if my mother will be around as each year passes. I have begun the grief process and it hurts although my mother is still around (even now I feel hurt). I have my family to be present for, just like you have your son to be present for. I've lost love one's in the past such as my own son and other incomplete pregnancies, aunts and uncles, and grandparents and animals. I've lost many things but moving forward is important for your self and your young child. My grandmother passed away on February 14, 1977. She was a strong woman who lost children and two husbands and she loved everything around her especially her children as they were precious. She cried when she remembered the death of my toddler aunt. That told me than that no one is every forgotten and we continue to grieve but in smaller quantities as years pass. Today, honor your parents by taking care of someone else, you are important. I read a book some time ago called "Ishi, the Last of his Tribe." which helped me come to terms with people who have passed.